Tag: haiku

ANNIHILATION

are you in the dark
searching for a guiding light,
searching for something?

what are you wishing
in a night without the stars,
in a night mirrored by scars?

what is inside you?
do you wish to let it go?
is even true?

what are the questions
that lives deep within your mind?
what lives in your heart?

once this light bring you
somewhere you never asked for,
where will your life go?

This isn’t goodbye, it’s see you kids later :)

“I need to put my mask on”
for I’m trying to go on
far from the peace that I long

remembering every song

that got me right here
that is worth all doubts and fear

not showing a tear

every morning I wake up
wondering how I can stop
all your doubts and fears that stop

or pause your way to the top

I sometimes stay still
waiting for silence, for peace

that i barely have

I used to think that
maybe I am not for this
that I failed you all
during times I lose control

sometimes I think I will fall

every night, I pause and think
how things will change if I blink
how to stop the ship to sink

trying to find every link

so.
I decided to go on
decided not to out a mask on
went out of my comfort zone
have my ears and heart on
not just with math, but with what’s going on
I remember, that even when I’m out
it’s always thoughts of you all that I shout
Asking for advice
Praying for guidance

just to help, to teach, and to educate all of you

in math,
I made sure that the numbers matter
at the same time,
I tried my best to remind that everything that you do matters

for you all matter

I doubted myself
but with all your help
your simple gestures
saying “sir I finally get it”
those words, without you kids knowing
leaves my heart continuously smiling
I wish at that time I also said that

“I finally get it”

I finally get
why I wake up at 4 in the morning
and still think of you all in the evening
it is indeed my first year in teaching
yet you kids made me feel everything

everything that I needed to feel

I found peace in the chaos of our classes

I found peace in the spaces of your noises

thank you, for I found who I am when I am with all of you

thank God, for I found peace, when I found all of you

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a collection of poems (haiku, tanka, tanaga, and a free verse) for all of the wonderful souls that made my first year in teaching, the most grueling, frustrating, yet the most amazing, wonderful, blessed, and rewarding time of my life so far.
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to 9B, 9G, 9H, and ofc 9L
This is Sir A, Sir Alcantara
signing of as your Mathematics Teacher

Cruel

you know, I wonder

why such things happen to us

and to others too

we just long for love

longing for something to stay

to make us human

but how will we know?

how will we know what will stick

without cruelty?

I’m not even sure

no matter what we live by

we are meant to hurt

until it’s worth it?

but what about the others?

other that we’ve left behind?

well that’s our journey

we get lost finding ourselves

and crash as we go

and learn how to walk

with our crooked smiles displayed

saying we’re alive

that’s what our lives mean

we can’t help but be cruel

until we wake up

aren’t we just young?

or maybe this is adulting?

maybe, I don’t know

and that’s cruelty

gifted by the universe

so we can be us

so that we’ll realize who we were

who we are now

and who we will become

Starlight

Under the street light

Barely seeing the starlight

Dreams out of my sight

What’s the view in yours?

Can you see the constellations?

Can you hear the roars

of the cars I’m chasing

and people I’m lost within?

Tell me what it’s like

the air you are breathing in

the stars above you

the paradise you are in

Tell me about you.

Are you doing fine?

Do the trees sway with your hair?

Do leaves rain on you?

What song do wind hum for you?

Do you have peace in your heart?

Do you think of me?

Or are you also like me,

even when you are at peace

in that world of yours

there is chaos inside you?