Okay, can I be really honest for a moment? Kasi, I do not have any idea on what the poem means for hue. – Here’s the thing, all of my works, the meanings of them are literally changing especially when I get questions every now and then. – The very reason is that, I simply forgot. I mean, I’m no “writer” compared to those who have published their poems, but I’ve written thousands of poems in almost ten years that I just can’t help but forget things. – In a way, that became the idea for the re imagining of hue. Hue is of course referring to colors, and at the same time the mood of a person. In this case, hue is one of the three artworks in melancholia that has colors other than black and white. It’s an artistic decision that I made that probably will be unnoticed. But the point is, in the midst of the dark, we can find color. 🙂
– Lose myself tells a story about two people who thought that they found what they are looking for in each other. – The artwork is a digitalized version of my sketch based on the indie-film “Ang kuwento nating dalawa”. – To say the least, it is based on my struggles with past relationships that I could barely understand at the time that I wrote the poem. – The main reason as to why I decided to re tell Melancholia, is for me to fully understand where I was, where I am now, and where I should go. – One of the common themes of the whole zine is all about heart breaks, and longing for something. – I have to admit, it’s been three years since I last dated someone, two years since I last tried to go ask someone out. In those years in between, I hated myself and even lost the drive to move forward. But it was through all that pain that I realized maybe the reason why such relationships didn’t work is because we are not meant to be, and we are just preparing each other for the next step. – I joked around that maybe it was all me, since the people that got out of my life are now doing better. That was a sad way of looking at it before. – But now, one thing is for sure. If God will let me have another shot to fall in love again, I can guarantee that I will no longer lose myself.
Welcome to a new beginning for this blog, or whatever this is called. Haha. LOL. Man, I don’t want to sound like a professional or whatever, I just want to keep this me.
I always wanted having monthly reflections/journal every end of the month. What a way to start it with this, a journal that makes me question, “is it okay to use this time for this?”
Well, yes. I have tons of work to prepare for, other concerns. But having time for things that I really like doing, which I will share in a minute, keeps me sane and content in the midst of the pandemonium around us.
January is a great way to start this year. Yes, it is far from perfect. It is actually complicated, draining, but I never looked the other way. I faced it all with all of me. I am continuing to teach myself of things that I already know, yet it took me just now to apply.
I fully committed on writing journals, reading, taking videos, writing poems, sketching, and exercising every now and then. Everything takes a long time to do all in all, but it is indeed necessary to do such activities to keep me motivated and content.
And with that being said, here are some poems that I will share. Before that, I would like to say that I will share ALL of them in the future. I write haikus everyday, and tankas + tanagas every week.
For now, here are the Tankas that I was able to write for the month of January.
We begin again
as colors fill the night sky
all the light, the pain
just so we could learn to fly
in the midst of these tough times
Week One
where all these roads lead
starting from the very seed
planted from afar
keep pushing, keep dreaming on
grow as the man you dream of
Week Two
go and let it burn
not for you to change your turn
but for you to go
be the light in this darkness
before you fade all the way
Week Three
ride against the wind
feel the breeze of what is left
inhale what you need
exhale what makes your smile lost
and be who you are freely
Week Four
Those are the poems that I can share so far, and as mentioned earlier, I also started sketching. At the same time, I decided to improve such artwork through digitalizing them. Here are some of my works for this month featuring KPOP sensations Red Velvet, BTS, and Black Pink.
SEULGI
IRENE
YERI
JOY
WENDY
JUNGKOOK
JIMIN
TAEHYUNG
SUGA
NAMJOON
J HOPE
JIN
JENNIE
ROSE
LISA
JISOO
Before I say good bye, I also went back to reading books. I managed to finish reading Meditations, and now I’m in the midst of reading Valis.
If there is one thing that I can take away from this month, it’s that I have to do my duty as a human being and be content with myself. Yes, there are times where I long for admiration, but slowly but surely, I am learning more about what I can do, and things that are in right that also makes me happy.
As long as you are not hurting anyone, just do you, do what’s right, do what makes you happy.
one day, the sky will light up again one day, it will be worth all the pain one day, the view will be the most mysterious yet the most peaceful that you will ever see for the view is your dream, breathing in reality – one day, but not today.
I drew this a year ago, and I am not that good with coloring so I just left it unfinished.But last night, I had the courage to actually try digital art to finish the artwork. It’s imperfect, but I am really glad that I’m learning new things.
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