I do not know where to go
Paint me like Vincent Van Gogh
Bring me back in time for show
Let the colours in me flow
Tell me what you and I know
That even how hard the snow
None of us will ever go
Tell me this lie, let me know
Poetic as this may be
Like our questions and maybe
Maybe I just cannot see
I just need you close to me
Maybe all I know are lies
Focused too much on fireflies
Instead of where my heart lies
I just need you in my eyes
rowing towards your fragrance
no matter how small the chance
I’ll let the stars make me dance
just to catch even a glance
every time I look at you
I see the rainbows in blue
there lies what I know is true
that all I can see is you
the wind blew us all the way
where we are so far away
Still, I close my eyes and pray
that we’ll have another day
in a forest of fire flies
comes a scorching sun at rise
on the run from all those spies
to stay alive, she spoke lies
–
enters a lonely firefly
afraid of fire in the sky
yet he failed to stop and try
once he got caught by an eye
–
he learned to stay, wait, and far
she learned to stay close afar
knowing they wont win the war
their eyes stayed with the same star
–
she just wanted to hold him
and he sings the same rhythm
but he followed his heart’s scream
he held her towards his dream
I know how tough our life is
I know how fast the time is
I know how short the night is
that’s why we live it like this
waiting for the sun to rise
as I look into your eyes
condensing, traces of byes
please stay even when it flies
this is all we’ll ever get
no matter who wins the bet
my lost is already set
the ground will slowly be wet
why can’t the stars simply stay?
why can’t the moon be at bay?
is there any other way?
what do you want me to say?
I wasn’t waiting for it
not even a single bit
but destiny’s still a hit
another cigar to lit
why don’t we just stay right here?
why don’t we just stay this near?
why don’t we just stay with fear,
and have a coffee to stir?
can we just stop the sunrise?
can we just skip the goodbyes?
can we just look at our eyes?
please stay, before this chance dies.
search for something within you
the pillars above the blue
which is false, which one is true?
let the heavens take us through
I wish for the waves to take me
I wish for the waves to bring me back to the shore
I wish I wouldn’t drown quickly
I wish to go back to the way it was before
I hope the stars would carry me
I hope the stars would eventually fall
I hope the stars can shine endlessly
I hope the stars will answer every call
I pray that you will find me
I pray that I will wait for you
I pray that you will remain happy
And I pray that I am the one to fill that shoe
If only we could
stay here for a little while
lay your head on me
no words needed to be said
just us, under the night sky
She walks like there’s no tomorrow
She is all smiles, no signs of sorrow
She talks so clear, yet voices something hollow
She told me, there’s no time to borrow
Just now
All we have is now
She told me
worry about nothing
Just you and me
and every thing
Is just a star in the galaxy
A colour finding its canvas
That’s why we should just live this memory
and make sure that it will last
If you ask me what the heck happened during my four years in college, all I could ever make out is two years in total.
There those times where I was half-asleep and answer with mumbo jumbos whenever I’m caught during discussions, fully asleep in different innovative positions, writing poems and songs instead of taking notes, at business center having coffee while reading a book, having one of my “break times”, playing Dota with my friends instead of attending some of my classes, and circling around the campus to burn time.
I’m not proud of some things that I did, but I wouldn’t have it the other way. Because if that 79 in Trigonometry and the lost of a scholarship never happened, I wouldn’t be the person that I am now.
I was asked almost two weeks ago during my first job interview this question. “Why would we hire you, if we have applicants that are topnotchers and academic awardees?” – “You cannot give what you don’t have.”
I was unable to answer the words that I really wanted to say, but I managed to move pass it. During my demo, I managed to incorporate my passion in poetry during discussion. I told my students that each and every one of us are different even though we are currently at the same point.
Maybe I am truly destined to have the word “Ray” in my name. Just like a ray, no matter how many times I got myself to points that I lost myself, I kept pusing forward to what I truly want to dedicate my whole life too. And that is to be an “educator”.
Last thursday, we had the torch ceremony where we passed the torch to the third year students.
I may have symbolically passed the torch, but I never lost it. I will forever hold the torch that is bestowed upon me by Inang Pamantasan.
No matter what I do, wherever I go, I will give my best to provide light to those who are lost in the dark similar to where I was before.
What I really want to say is that, I am not going to be a teacher. In a few months I will fully become an “educator”. I won’t be just an educator inside the four corners of a classroom, I will be an educator wherever I go.
The moral of my story is that, there are those who are lost, dwelling in sadness and pain, hanging by a thread. But there will always be a way out. God is always on our side. Challenges are not there to hinder, but to bring out the best we could be. Everything will indeed be alright in time.
I’m still not the best version that I’m chasing, and I will never reach that. But I will damn well make sure that I’ll be a millimeter close by the time the sun sets for me.
P.S.
This was supposed to be for my blog, but we don’t have internet right now.
And for the last time, I am.
ELRAY PATRICK G. ALCANTARA
IV-16 BME
Bachelor in Mathematics Educator
Took Calculus 3 TWICE
Most number of hours dedicated to sleeping and cramming
Crusader V
TOP 19 PNUAT
PLDT GABAY GURO SCHOLAR
JLSS DOST SCHOLAR
GRADUATING
HIRED
And most importantly
HUMAN
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